tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-50006954740114959142024-02-08T03:54:38.480-08:00Blub BlubTrials of being a Sea creatureSquiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-5422166691432699902012-03-28T12:21:00.002-07:002012-03-28T12:21:21.317-07:00oh FFSWHY CANT I EVER BE CONSISTANT >:C<br />
buh.<br />
ill still keep some of my diet stuff here, but im moving more over to tumblr orz<br />
not like i have any followers <_>Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-9027706099605041142012-03-10T18:26:00.001-08:002012-03-10T18:27:17.020-08:00collegewell... I've finally decided on a college I want.... its even got the courses all in a neat lil thing.<br />
but i didnt take act or sat, im shit at math, and im broke. ;-; I just wanna make REAL SCIENCE. but the only way im getting into uw is a year of prep for both tests because fuck math and then even more years of raising money and moving out to my grans. who stresses me and doesnt ask before she puts plate of cake in my hand and wont pay for decent internet because her hotspot from verizon is 'better'. at 900 ping and .01 dl how can i even justify how much i spent on computer stuff to date ;----;<br />
rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr why cant it ever just be easy....<br />
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maybe i can get my shit together and do one of those kickstarter campains. that would work right ;m;<br />
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on another note, my diets going decently :V only problem is i still drink a ton of soda. so ive got like a half pound out of the 50/60 im going for. >_>Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-9991700695057780262012-02-17T00:22:00.000-08:002012-02-17T00:22:57.686-08:00GRRRRRRRRRRRwell that was a fun month :l internet kept going, power kept going, HDD DIED >:C<br />
diet got sidetracked as well :c<br />
stuck to a low cal, but i lost track and counting was taking up way too much time. also, I found this Supplement called hgc that ive been using. supposedly its a pregnancy hormone designed to.... to... well, to help you lose weight somehow :l its been working though, the boots I bought as to use as a checkpoint fit now, so ive lost most of my huge calves ~~~<3<br />
aaaahh, i need a scale though.<br />
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on another note, I may be moving in July x3 yaaay no more renting crappy houses. And once i move, Ill do a review on this city and more importantly, THIS house. You might not even beleive how terrible the condition Ive been living in is ;-;Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-20410320338273914492012-01-13T21:32:00.000-08:002012-01-13T21:32:48.876-08:00Oh, no....this week.... kinda sucked balls for my diet.<br />
check in first:<br />
1080<br />
1238<br />
1020<br />
1000<i forgot to count calories at dinner today so im rounding up><br />
1140<br />
1186<br />
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while its still close to my limit, going over at all means im getting lax. last week id been sticking around the 80-900 range.<br />
last friday id been out shopping, and eaten at a restaurant that was SUPER UNHEALTHY. so i went over. this week friday, my mom made pizza QQ<br />
ate 1000 calories worth. terrible!<br />
today after the pizza i felt all kinds of heavy so i just a minute ago did my usual calesthenic crap. pushups, lunges, situps and crunches, normal stuff i can do at home<br />
wish i had a scale.......Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-20108904948586698362012-01-07T07:38:00.000-08:002012-01-07T07:38:40.385-08:00Oh. Oops.I've been keeping track of how many calories I've been eating in a journal. I'd count here, but the blogger 'signyououtandloginasagmailaccount' thing doesn't make my computer happy.<div>ANYWAY, I've been posting about my goals and such, and as I'm seven days into my diet, thought I'd give a check in.</div><div><br />
</div><div>Basically what I've done to keep track of calories is write everything i eat, and afterwards use an app on my ipod to find out how much I've eaten. here are the results for week one:</div><div>1856</div><div>1318</div><div>1270</div><div>981</div><div>1002</div><div>895</div><div><br />
</div><div>its been going down really steadily from almost 3k a day <badbadbad> but I noticed something. I'm not supposed to go under1k, because its really really unhealthy in the long run. and since I've been working out a little, I'm essentially eating WAY less than is healthy. and not feeling it at all D:</div><div>I hope I'm not setting myself up for an Eating disorder ;^;</div><div><br />
</div><div>on another note, I'm teaching myself Swedish. Its trucking difficult.</div>Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-19300670733689412942012-01-04T10:17:00.000-08:002012-01-04T10:17:40.059-08:00Wierder then Expectedseriously. day 3 and i had a cup of rice with veggies and a boiled egg for breakfast and im so full i want to die. how is this possible ; ;<br />
also figured this is a good time for my actual goals.<br />
1k calories a day<br />
3 bottles of water/day<br />
try to do any working out (</3)<br />
vituminz<br />
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only 1k calories even though i know it isnt healthy because i know myself and i know my will power. 1k is not a lot, and i usually end up about 14, 13, or 12k. ;3<br />
bottle water is hard because #1, im germophobic and the cups in my house arent fucking clean. i have one water bottle i refill from time to time but ive had to pee 5/6 times a day instead of 1/2 like when i drank 3 sodas<br />
wtf yo.<br />
also, going to start pics soon, just gotta figure out how im going about it.Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-57615887287301903902012-01-02T13:54:00.000-08:002012-01-02T13:54:36.939-08:00So I'm starting a diet>< new years resolutions yo<br />
-diet<br />
-learn to drive<br />
-find a career<br />
-get a new case for my computer and buy a better cpu and fans<br />
so many fans<br />
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anyway. going from 'eat all the foods' to 1000 calorie limit. i dont care if it takes me all year but I WILL BE SKINNY GODDAMNIT.<br />
and then ill go shopping with all the money i saved from not eating. but my sodas man ; ;<br />
water bottles are so plaaaaaainnnSquiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-77438380191840046892011-10-25T09:36:00.000-07:002011-10-25T09:36:09.784-07:00What I thought of Germany part 5so, the home stay.<br />
overall, it kind of ruined the trip for me but also, I kind of liked it. basically we went with out partners to school to learn about the differances between american schools and german schools. there were a ton, but thats for a seperate post. basically what i did during the home stay was talk to home on my ipod, meander about Eggenfelden (where we stayed), and make the most of being on my own in a differant country. when we did do group things, like when i and a bunch of other students and their partners took a train to a bigger city, it was generally okay. we'd shop around, get lunch at nice places that werent expensive, that was the biggest shock, how cheap a nice restaurant was! 10 euro and you could have a nice lunch for what in the US would be maybe 20 dollars for somethign less nice. anyway. during the home stay i went to a few parties, had a few drinks, fun stuff. of course we werent allowed to drink, but now that the trips over i think its safe to put out. not like i can get into trouble anymore ;3.<br />
my favorite part of the town was the fact that you could sit outside, out in the road practically, and it was totally normal. the cafes just spilled out into the streets and plazas and cars just drove farther away. very nice and clean, too. i don't think i ever saw any litter, even in slummier places.<br />
most of the other students bonded more with their partners than i did, so that may have been my only problem with the home stay was that i was essentially staying with a stranger v.vSquiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-39608562823326961182011-10-19T09:47:00.000-07:002011-10-19T09:47:18.063-07:00What I thought of Germany part 4once we left dresden, we went to a little place called seiffen, a woodworking place full of quiant houses and the best tobaggon slide known to man.<br />
we all went 2 times. then nerdbitch (this guy who thought he was super awesome cuz he'd been everywhere thrice and talked like a nerd and went to college full time since middle school. he read twilight the whole trip and im more than a little sure he was gay) had an allergic reaction to something and had to be taken to a hospital. >_> i lol'd even though tis terrible. in berlin he spent 5 hours wandering round a tiny lil place when we could have taken a bus and saved my poor bleeding feet. ill put that later if i get bored i spose....<br />
ANYWAY, we went and meandered about the little open air museum type old town, bought some cool wood things... i got these two things called smokers. basically incense burners. the creation of the month was this family of dragons /)*3*(\ i wanted the scaredy one and the grandpa... but there was no more opas v.v so i got a mama dragon instead :3<br />
for this one night we stayed at a jugendherberge that was actually an old CASTLE. SO. AWESOME.<br />
4 room mates, we played i've never and i always, best part of the trip where i was around people >_>Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-44996412448473278042011-10-19T09:41:00.000-07:002011-10-19T09:41:45.743-07:00What I thought of Germany part 3the second week of being in germany....<br />
the first half was Dresden. WAY FUCKING PRETTIER THAN BERLIN. we were there for 3 days only though QQ<br />
on the way there we stopped in Morritzburg and got a ton of ginger bread ;3<br />
first day in dresden we went to the Grunes Gwolbe, the best museum ive ever seen o3o<br />
so many shiny jewles and victorian things.... QQ why couldnt I have been a victorian princess?<br />
anyway..... we stayed in a really nice jugend herberge, where i got laughed at by scoff bitch because i had my own room due to a mix up. i would have preferred a room mate to feel less like an outcast but....whatever i got to chill and fart in my own room and generally slob it up without worry....sooo nice after the first week of trying to be perfect. >:C<br />
the second day we went to poland and got a huge mess of pottery. I bought a bunch of plates, a teapot, some assorted little things for my family (tortoise and a cat thing). also some spoons but only 2 survived the airline e_e<br />
we also went to the fifa US v korea soccor game, first sport id been to. was super awesome besides the huge lines and the HEAT QQ got a nice shirt though :3<br />
that was also the day we went to the zwinger :3 very pretty place, wish we could have stayed for more than 10 mins e_eSquiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-80815632184629867952011-10-19T09:31:00.001-07:002011-10-19T09:31:49.057-07:00What I thought of Germany part 2So. the first week.<br />
well the first days were the worst. getting to know a bunch of strangers from school that were known for being cliche-ably preppy. three guys, 10 girls. shit gets bad.<br />
anyway so basically the time we spent in Berlin was used for shopping and being forced into a group system so we all got to know each other. :l basically i kept having this one total bitch in my group. always scoffing or being particularly passive aggressive at anything i did. scoffing, sighing and crossing her arms, being an attention whore, all sorts of things that she only did when i mentioned i had to go to the bank, or go to a drugstore, or buy a souvenir.... >:C<br />
terrible.<br />
highlights - I went to a German zoo, or at least part of it. we went late so we had to hurry but it was still pretty awesome. I bought a hat shaped like a polar bear.<br />
sooo many souvenirs, and cheap restaurants! we went out every night and only spent maybe 5 euro a person. sooo awesome.<br />
for most of the days we'd been given an objective, go here, take a picture of this, do that... generally annoying shit that no one did and we all lied about so we could buy alcohol and candy. Kadewe...could have been better. the first time i went, we got lost and didn't do anything. the second time i got ditched by the bitch from before and this other girl. alone with a pissed off, self loving musician, we stomped round the thing for hours until he finally gave in and went up to the FRONT GODDAMN DESK to call our teachers, then instead of taking the bus to the hotel, we walked. my feet were already murdering me and he was basically running >:C.<br />
well any way we got back and they'd gone to the hotel to take naps :l great.<br />
the day after the kadewe thing, we went on a tour of some museums and churches, which really were gorgeous. but my feet were literally bleeding so i was limping along behind everyone trying to have fun around scoffbitch and her posse. ugh.<br />
the second to last day in Berlin we went to sachsenhousen concentration camp. apparently picked because it was one of the least grotesque camps. thanks school. i love having things picked for me. oh also we technically weren't supposed to drink either, the teacher was a mormon and disallowed even handing out the parental forms. :l didn't stop us though.<br />
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</div>Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5000695474011495914.post-27831453950339468002011-10-19T08:47:00.000-07:002011-10-19T08:47:18.383-07:00What I thought of Germany part 1so, first post.<br />
In june I went on an exchange program to Germany. first impresion....the whole country reeks of cigarette smoke. that aside, gorgeous place. landed in frankfurt after a 9 hour flight and had to get on another to Berlin imediatly. Lets just say I'd never flown before so I just followed people. badly. i got lost 3 times >_><br />
anyway. first hotel was this sort of old, homey place with a rep for maids that take silly things like toothpaste. I'll say this now, I was at least a year older than every one else on the trip, to most of them i was 2 years older. I had to share a room at that hotel with 2 juniors that were already friends. I'm not social so it was a pain in the ass to be around people that much. first night i realised something. the stores didnt take my chase credit card and my mom had told me to buy things like soap in Germany too prevent somethign spilling. we werent allowed to go off on our own and no one knew how to use the banks. I had no soap, shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, q tips; nothing. not even a towel because I'd packed in a hurry.<br />
so the first week in Berlin was really really shitty.Squiddlyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10536293020272551230noreply@blogger.com0