Oh, no....

this week.... kinda sucked balls for my diet.
check in first:
1080
1238
1020
1000<i forgot to count calories at dinner today so im rounding up>
1140
1186

while its still close to my limit, going over at all means im getting lax. last week id been sticking around the 80-900 range.
last friday id been out shopping, and eaten at a restaurant that was SUPER UNHEALTHY. so i went over. this week friday, my mom made pizza QQ
ate 1000 calories worth. terrible!
today after the pizza i felt all kinds of heavy so i just a minute ago did my usual calesthenic crap. pushups, lunges, situps and crunches, normal stuff i can do at home
wish i had a scale.......

Oh. Oops.

I've been keeping track of how many calories I've been eating in a journal. I'd count here, but the blogger 'signyououtandloginasagmailaccount' thing doesn't make my computer happy.

ANYWAY, I've been posting about my goals and such, and as I'm seven days into my diet, thought I'd give a check in.

Basically what I've done to keep track of calories is write everything i eat, and afterwards use an app on my ipod to find out how much I've eaten. here are the results for week one:

1856

1318

1270

981

1002

895

its been going down really steadily from almost 3k a day <badbadbad> but I noticed something. I'm not supposed to go under1k, because its really really unhealthy in the long run. and since I've been working out a little, I'm essentially eating WAY less than is healthy. and not feeling it at all D:

I hope I'm not setting myself up for an Eating disorder ;^;

on another note, I'm teaching myself Swedish. Its trucking difficult.

Wierder then Expected

seriously. day 3 and i had a cup of rice with veggies and a boiled egg for breakfast and im so full i want to die. how is this possible ;      ;
also figured this is a good time for my actual goals.
1k calories a day
3 bottles of water/day
try to do any working out (</3)
vituminz

only 1k calories even though i know it isnt healthy because i know myself and i know my will power. 1k is not a lot, and i usually end up about 14, 13, or 12k. ;3
bottle water is hard because #1, im germophobic and the cups in my house arent fucking clean. i have one water bottle i refill from time to time but ive had to pee 5/6 times a day instead of 1/2 like when i drank 3 sodas
wtf yo.
also, going to start pics soon, just gotta figure out how im going about it.

So I'm starting a diet

>< new years resolutions yo
-diet
-learn to drive
-find a career
-get a new case for my computer and buy a better cpu and fans
so many fans

anyway. going from 'eat all the foods' to 1000 calorie limit. i dont care if it takes me all year but I WILL BE SKINNY GODDAMNIT.
and then ill go shopping with all the money i saved from not eating. but my sodas man ;     ;
water bottles are so plaaaaaainnn